My 3 Shifts After No Self

There is a common misunderstanding that once the "self" drops—that moment of No Self or Full Enlightenment—you are done. Game over. Eternal bliss.

But in my experience, that wasn’t the end. It was actually just the beginning of a deeper integration.

Even when there is no personal self left, there are still be remnants of conditioning. I recently went through three profound shifts that I really wanted to share with you, because they brought everything full circle for me.

1. The End of Knowledge
I was literally sitting on the toilet when this hit me. I just started laughing my ass off. I realized that "knowing" is just another form of holding on. We try to fill the puzzle of life with concepts and ideas. But true freedom? That’s realizing there is absolutely nothing to know. The intellectual puzzle just dissolved.

2. The End of Seeking
For years, I had been trying to "one-up" life. To optimize it, hack it, or get somewhere else. Seeking is basically a subtle movement of "not wanting to be here." It’s a constant push for a better future moment. When that dropped, the need to be anywhere other than right here vanished.

3. The End of Restlessness
After the seeking was gone, I noticed a raw feeling left behind. Just pure restlessness. A feeling of "yuck." Instead of analyzing it, I sat with it for about 40 minutes. I fully embraced the unease. And then? It dropped.

This happened over a couple of days.

Coming Full Circle
After I just had the No Self Shift it felt really crazy and I needed to really get used to this new life. I did not felt ready for more or deepening. I was scared to be honest for deeper shifts. But actually, it’s the opposite. It was integrating nicely, it feels stable. It feels easy. It feels incredibly normal. It is a new life of quiet enjoyment of whatever shows up.

If you are currently navigating this intense journey—whether you are seeking a shift or trying to integrate one—know that it is worth it.

If you ever want to chat about where you are in this process, I’m here.

Much Love,

Kees.